Sick of hicupping.

Childhood memories are a mere fairytale existence, unremembered realities of brighter days.

And so much easier.

And you're also starting to think...

that I'm being really suss cause I'm not telling you what I'm doing. Its kind of amusing really (:

More like butter menth-lols

How do you know whats right and whats wrong?
Who is to judge?
Who is to know the reality?

Theres my post-modern philosiphising for the week.

Talking cats + new tops + missed trains

Panoramic lights


A cat can be a talker or a listener. I met one this morning that was a bit of both. And all around cute.

Like a Tiger

I didn't wear any make-up to school today.
It's kind of sad how uncomfortable I felt without it.

Nothing compares to this familiar feeling.

Alone, not lonely.

I should be doing work right now.

Set me on fire.

This is what happens when the Smithers family has a bonfire.



Hello father. Can you see him?






Candid camera.






Its pretty hectic crazy. Which is also now my new catch phrase.

Equillibrium

Figure this one out.


I tried to balance out my Karma yesterday. I wonder if it worked.

Wanna be part of my new addiction?

Bonita

I have re-discovered my fascination with eyes.
As if they're not amazing.

Just breathe.

How much of life is left to chance?
Or does everything happen for a reason?

I've lost nothing that you can't find

Lucky eye.

Go back to the basics.

Watching the weather go by.

To a different world.


With the truth painted black
And your lies painted gold...

Which would you rather believe?

One down, Ninety-nine to go.

'And slowly we fall down'

I know its only year 11, but there is a non-stop onslaught of assessments. Which I probably could spend less time complaining about and more time working on, but this is more fun.

Apply within

Start digging here.


How much do dreams affect you?

Reading between the lines

'I want you addicted to me'

The weather matched the sickness. It seemed to agree, there was no need to go outside today.

There was only four things that mattered. A book, a bed, a heat pack and me.

Slow songs always make for a more contemplative mood.

ohai Buddha.

Prime examples:
Heartbeats by Jose Gonzales
Blood Bank by Bon Iver
Stranger Things Have Happened by the Foo Fighters

I'm sorry blog, for not loving you as much as I used to.

Time makes fools of us all.
And I'm lazy.

So sit on top of the world.

But are you fighting for nothing?

Oops.

New addictions:
Blood - The Middle East
Hands Around My Throat - Death in Vegas
You! Me! Dancing! - Los Campesinos
Saviour - Lights
Extraball - Yuksek

Just talking about clouds.

Lifes too short NOT to be philosophical.









Yeah, I went there.

There were rainbows in my water.

Sometimes its just those random acts of kindness that make your day. They remind you that you are special, even if its too a stranger.

But ignoring is more fun.

If you walk into a classroom and theres a window missing, either theres something wrong with your school or something wrong with your coffee.

Dripping with alchemy.

In the end you have something so far removed from the original product that you dont know where the fake ends and the real begins.

Or if there is any real left.

One Desire.

A glance
Eye contact.
Look away. Look back.
A touch
Both hands.
Reaching slowly, meeting.
A sigh

And then the explosion.

And then the decision.

Was I too close for contact.

And in the darkness she screamed for the light.



And in the darkness she waited.

You are not alone, dear loneliness.

Dear Alyssa;
Thankyou for your kind letter. It provided many lols. And the Dunndemort reference? Pure genius. I hope that our letter swapping can continue for many a year.

I would just like to point out how its kind of sad how my phone has a better camera than my actual digital camera. Fail? Perhaps.

Love F.M.
[expand on that fat]

Playing for affection.

This is my new phone. Hate to say it, old phone, but this ones better.

Time anachronism.

Basic Human Instinct.

Its like eating. Except ten times better.

RIPhone

So my beloved phone finally carked it. Kind of. It still turns on, just the inside screen is blank.

People sometimes say theres beauty in death.


I just say theres one unread text message in half death.

Poignant desire

When making up bullshit for English, its funny what little gems you come up with.

Gems that will be of no importance to you ever again.

For a subject that wont even matter in 5 years.

Don't you just love homework?

Twisted transparency.

Handle with Care.

Converstations while cooking.

There are superficial facts in life.

And then there are truths.




You'll know when you've found a truth. It sticks to your heart.

Faking the smile for a while more.

I had this really vivid dream last night.

I watched this major car crash, twice.
The first time I saw it was through the media.

The second time was through my own eyes. And between the two times was the lead up of events to me seeing it.

And the second time, it played out in slow motion. And I knew what was happening, but I couldn't do anything to stop it. I just watched. Transfixed, horrified, scared, mad.



And I had never felt so alone and helpless than when I was watching this car-crash dream.

Sleep is over-rated

Dream. Wish. Create. Think. Believe. Hope. Love.



And try not to sound like a software production company advertisment.

Hating the wind.

I used to wonder if the world in the mirror was real. Whose to say that we are nothing more than mere reflections?

Delicious irony.

Oh Food Tech assessment. How fat you make me.

From the mess to the masses.

This is Funkie. She was found in Mount Colah. And can now be found in our house.

Still waiting for the owners to get back to us.

Warped reality, fractured imagination.

She asked me, 'Do you know when you're dreaming?'
I didnt hesitate.
'Yes.'



But that was just a dream.

90% real, 1% metal, 9% coffee

Drip.

There's this part at the begining of the live version of the song Hometown Glory by Adele. She's introducing herself to the audience, and her voice slightly quavers.

I don't know why, but it makes her seem more human. And every time I hear it, it makes me feel more normal.

Have you ever seen them in the same room?

One day, out of random desire, we’ll catch the bus heading for ‘Special’.




It sounds like a nicer place than ‘Sorry, not in service’.

And so we sang:

'Bugs and beetles in my cabbages,
Oh what horror, Oh what dread,
Five hungry beetles in my cabbages,
Soon my cabbages will be dead.

Ooh, Ah is what I said...
I hit a little beetle on the head'

Kids songs are just amazing.

Doing anything to just pass the time;

Teenage girls are just intimidating. You can tell what they're thinking by the way that they look at you.

And because you're giving that judgemental look right back at them..

Presets means:

Rain, smoke, sweat, mosh, lights, high, Van She, water, railing, pictures, pushing, Architecture in Helsinki, waiting, drunk people, high people, euphoria, life.



Presets means music.